I Hate This

Posted this on a personality type web site:

This may seem afield from an INFJ topic, but if you read all of it I think you’ll see the connection.


I hate this. I don’t want to think about it, but I can’t stop thinking about it. This information has screwed and is screwing with my head, which does not need any additional screws rattling around in it, if you get my drift.
It makes my stomach feel hollow sometimes; like when I’m terrified; my Fight or Flight system kicks in, but Flight is impossible, and Fight looks futile.
I wish I didn’t know.
But I do. And nothing is ever going to change it.
The question now is: what do I do?
Talking about it with most people is not only fruitless, it’s downright counterproductive. Within fifteen seconds of mentioning this I see the body language: the averted gaze, the held breath, the feet suddenly pointing away as if preparing to flee an assailant. By all measures of logic, I am speaking logically, but this logic is logic of the damned. Step near it, and its implications begin to pull like a Black Hole. Hm. No wonder people’s denial response wins 99% of the time.
Yet there is no ignoring it. Once this information has penetrated your defenses, you will never be capable of seeing the world as you have up until this point. You can try to ignore it or forget it, but it will always gnaw itself back into your consciousness. There is no escaping the implications.
If you’re still reading this, you’re probably curious: what in God’s name could he be talking about?
Here’s my advice: Run.
Close this page now. Forget you ever read this.
I am not an expert in any of the fields of study required to fully comprehend this matter. I’m just a guy with a broad Liberal Arts education and a B.A. The graduate work I’ve done was in Theatre, Acting to be specific. So there, that should do it. You should also know that many experts in relevant fields of study emphatically disagree with what I’m about to tell you.

You must be crazy.
Why would you want to know something that would disturb you so profoundly that you will never, ever, be the same? Well, if you’re anything like me, you just prefer knowing over ignorance. Even when it means becoming a stranger in a strange (and getting stranger all the time) land, knowing the truth about something is ultimately more liberating and empowering than muddling along in ignorance, no matter how painful that truth is.


Dr. Niels Harrit, Professor of Chemistry at the University of Copenhagen says this about nanothermite, and the contention by some that it could have been formed in the smoldering ruins of 9/11 by gypsum, rust, aluminum and paint etc. :
~ If you tossed some sulpher, glass particles, and phosphorous into a fire, would you expect that to produce a box of matches?
Of course not. The idea is preposterous. It is equally preposterous to think that such a highly engineered substance could be formed from materials in the World Trade Center ruins. Yet it was there, in enormous quantity. What was it doing there? How did it get there?
I am profoundly disappointed in most people I know. The vast majority have neither the science education nor the intellectual and spiritual courage to confront the devastating reality of tons of unignited nanothermite chips in the WTC dust.

Nanothermitic materials are engineered only in classified military/contractor labs. This material can be made to behave in very different ways, from explosives, to incendiaries. We have never seen what we saw on 9/11/01. When the building demolitions we have seen happen, we hear C4 and Semtex, TNT and shaped charges, high explosives, going off. If we don’t hear those high explosives, then most people assume they are not seeing an explosive event. Yet there are explosives which do not produce the massive BOOM we’re accustomed to hearing. They are highly energetic, and extremely destructive nonetheless. That’s really, really hard to believe, isn’t it?

So that’s it.

Tons of military grade nanothermite was in the World Trade Center towers before they were hit by airplanes.
When you watch footage of them beginning to fall, notice that they are turning into very, very fine dust in mid-air. Even before gravity has a chance to crush anything: powder, powder, powder, powder . . .
If, knowing this, you can live your life in ho-hum peace, then I envy you.
But I have to do something with this information: teach, exhort, encourage people to use their own good minds, especially those with chemistry and physics study under their belt.
This has become so much a part of me that I can’t imagine living my life without this knowledge near the forefront of my mind. Being INFJ (The Counselor/Protector) I am gripped with the need to advocate . . . for those who lost family and friends that day, for those who have lost their lives fighting the “War on Terror” --- given birth by 9/11; for those who were living in Iraq and Afghanistan, hundreds of thousands of civilians, many of them children, now dead.
I notice that INFJ’s tend to be smart; not just in a book-smart way, but a way which allows us to think for ourselves more than most. I’m guessing that we are less susceptible to brainwashing and disinformation programming, which is exactly what happened after 9/11: we were told by all the major news networks that the culprits had already been identified, and that we should all get on board with plans (which were in place well before 9/11/01) to invade Iraq and Afghanistan because (in Iraq’s case) they harbored biological weapons of mass destruction (a lie: no such weapons were ever found) and in Afghanistan’s case, that they were harboring Osama Bin Laden, who is on the FBI Most Wanted List, but not in connection to 9/11. When asked why, the FBI said that they have no evidence connecting Bin Laden to 9/11! WTF???

I’ve gotten used to people lambasting me for putting this out there, so I won’t be surprised if an INFJ group blasts me for posting this here, but it is very relevant to INFJ’s: we are often ahead of the herd. And I believe that we have a responsibility to engage those who are perpetuating the lies responsible for so much suffering.

“A time comes when silence is betrayal.”
Martin Luther King, INFJ

Thanks for that. I am not alone.

I feel the same way. I could have written that.
It is so odd to know something so very, very important, and nobody wants to hear it.
I never, ever, really believe something that is not true.......... When I say I really KNOW something it is something that has been proven over and over again, lots of evidence, just impossible to be wrong.
There are some things I believe in, but I know up front that I may be wrong about them. And there are some things that just cannot be proven.
But 9/11 is in a different category. It is something I KNOW. I cannot be wrong. Very few things do I put in this category.
When I say I KNOW something, it is virtually impossible to prove me wrong. I have already gone over it thousands of times, giving it the hardest tests possible.
And I KNOW 9/11 did not happen like the official story tells it.

And here I am, knowing this, and nobody wants to hear it. I watch as our nation destroys people around the world based on the false story of 9/11. I see my friends and relatives and associates so sucked in to obvious fairytales. And I am now at the point I feel it is futile to go on telling anyone about this. Occassionally..............actually seldom...............I get through to somebody. Their response? Usually, "oh well, there isn't much we can do about it........" and they go on as before.

I wish we could have some breakthrough. Somebody really, really important and well respected, who would come out and tell what he knows.

Why have I done this to myself?



take it to the next level


some people do want to know

they will come to you
ignore the rest
the student will come to the teacher
you have mastered this subject
stand peacefully and quietly
smile a little
say nothing
speak when spoken to
they will approach


I have found it to be vitally important to devote a good portion of my life to serving others. I help people who have developmental disabilities to find and keep jobs.
The work requires me to be very present tense with them, making it impossible to ruminate about 9/11 issues. Something about focusing on helping others makes my awareness of 9/11 navigable.

Those who devote most of their lives to 9/11 research must operate in a fundamentally different way than I do.
I know I can't do that and remain even remotely psychologically, spiritually, and physically healthy.

Each of us has to find what works for us. In the long run, if we keep staring into the abyss, as Nietzche said, the abyss is staring right back.



A quite INFJ cousin of mine didn't trust what she was seeing on 9/11 as it didn't ring true that the air defense would be thwarted so easily by hijacked planes.

She lost a lot of friends in the next year as she stuck to her guns.

The INFJ group

has engaged this essay quite readily, which is heartening to me. For those who don't know what "INFJ" is:

I = Introverted tendency ( iso Extroverted)
N= Intuitive tendency (iso Sensing)
F= Feeling tendency (iso Thinking)
J= Judging tendency (iso Perceiving)

This is the Myer's-Briggs personality evaluating system, pioneered by Carl Jung.
Like all typing systems, it has its limitations, but it can be helpful, which is what I look for in any tool.

INFJ tendency people are known for taking an unpopular stand even if that means standing alone much of the time. Fortunately, in the internet age, we can find support.